"what's going on"

What is going on in my life? today, i cried. i'm "man enough" to say that. I don't need to keep up an image of testosterone fueled actions, because that is not who i am. I am not gay, but many interpret my actions that way. Just because i have a smile on my face, and am spreading cheer to those who i do and don't know, doesnt make me gay. but if it helps you to accept me to think 'm gay, then go ahead. 

My day was changed a total of three times, each time whipping in a different direction. I heard a song and read a story that always gets me emotional, and cried and thought about my life with god. Then, i heard a man talk about that very same thing i was talking about, and then i saw this. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tRXjqpfOnS0&feature=youtu.be 

How beautiful is that. I can not say that i am on the same playing field as this young man, but i can certainly understand some of the things he has went through. going through elementary school and middle school without friends, is a feat that no person should ever have to overcome, but like him i was tortured by the thought that i would continue out of middle school with no friends, and continually be put down by the people i desperately wanted to call friend. if you meet someone that ever puts you down, to raise themselfs up, please help them. Find out what is wrong with them, and what is going on in their life, so you may sympathize, and befriend them, and even pray for them. do not push against those who wish to push against you, simply let them push, and take the impact and love them for it.