I've been becoming more distant from reality, and whether that'd be from stress our simply losing my mind, i don't know. It's not that i am going crazy, but rather i am becoming distant from what i am doing. My mind is still going a million miles a minute, and i still have no control of it. Once i think i have a though captured, it escapes from my clutches and vanishes into nothing. What thoughts are so urgent that they fly away from my grasp, i wonder.
I am in wonder constantly, at this earth that god has made. The beautiful sky, the wondrous geography, and the complexity of even the smallest things. I am also in wonder of why i am able to experience these things. Why am i allowed to live this life, even though i know that i do not deserve it. I sin, constantly, and without regret. I look upon my actions in disgust and wonder why i even made them in the first place. I can't afford to try to wrap my head around any more ideas like this, so for now, i simply let them escape my grasp into the nothingness of my mind.
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